The Kid In Me

I had accomplished and accumulated a lot of things at a young age. On the surface, things looked good, but in reality, it wasn’t as good as it seemed. There were plenty of days when I wished I was a kid again. A part of me felt like I grew up too fast and stripped myself of my youth. Now that I am older, my demeanor is somewhat of a younger person, and I feel that it’s a direct result of me not living life as a kid when I was a kid. It’s not a bad thing, but I am starting to have feelings of resentment.

I’m looking back at certain things that people usually learn as a kid, and I am wishing I had those opportunities as a kid. I’ve never learned how to swim, I never participated in any sports, nor was I part of any “kiddie” activities outside of school. There are some days that I wish I could have a redo. What would I have done differently? I’m not 100% sure, but I know that I probably would’ve gone to college immediately after high school and would have been involved in recreational sports.

I have worked so many hours since the age of 16, and now that I am in my 40s, the kid in me wants to play. I just want to experience life- the life I feel that I somewhat missed out on. The beauty of it all is that the trajectory of my life has been a roadmap to lead me to where I am today, and I am hopeful that I can help others who have had similar experiences as me. I can’t go back in time, but I am going to enjoy my life, create memories, learn new things, and do things that make me happy. Be YOUthiful no matter what age you are!